all that glitters is gold?

We had a great and productive trip to Colorado Springs. However we found out that we don't qualify for the dream house, however the second one on our list is basically ours. It is still a super nice 3 level with a beautiful kitchen with Spanish tile and filled with vaulted ceilings with sky lights, plus two full baths and a nice sun room off the back with lots of windows. You all know how I love to decorate windows. I know I need help. Josh is beside himself with excitement, as well he should be. His new company is even going to pay for full benefit's for all of us, which is a huge relief, and a great incentive for all of us.
Trying to sell this house is a whole other ordeal. You don't realize how much you are owned by the things you own until something like this comes up. We have had a few interested people but nothing substantial so far. We are going to have another open house this Sunday, but after that I'm not sure what will happen. We have decided that if it doesn't sell by Halloween then we will start to rent it out, and ask someone we trust up here to be the property manager.
Raider is going to come with us, I just cant do it, I cant put him down. Sometimes he runs around and looks at me and I remember that cute little puppy that I fell in love with 7 years ago. He still has at least another 6 years left in him, so I will not be the executioner.....yet....But he better shape up and quit being a mad pisser.
I have not talked to my mother in a year, and I called her and left a message letting her know that we were moving and if she wanted to see her grand kids one last time before we leave she could have that option. What do you think happened, of course she did not call. Our achievements for her must only mirror her failures. That is all I will say about that, because I know they have blogger Spies who watch for excessive bad language and derogatory content. Why give her the satisfaction. I know all of you love me and my kids not matter what and that is all that matters. So here we go on the roller coaster, right now we are just heading up the hill, I can see the twists and upside down turns ahead and the butterflies are starting in the pit of my sole, but one good thing about roller coaster rides is that they eventually end.

Thank God for Xanex

Our house is looking so clean and uncluttered, it's like I don't live here anymore. This Sunday while we are in Colorado our house will be having an open house. Let's hope someone loves it as much as we have and decides to buy it. If not we are going to have to rent it out, which hurts me worse than a tooth ache or even having a baby. We all know how MOST people treat rentals. All these changes, you think I would be a mess, however I have discovered the magic of Xanex, it is the wonder drug for me. All the stress melts away and I can still function and think clearly, but all of the moodiness and anxiety are gone. Im on a very low dose along with some Valium, so life is good now that I am properly medicated. LOL. We will meet Josh's new boss on Sunday and they will work out all the details of his employment. I guess his Secretary will be there to entertain me while they haggle, and do what ever they are going to do. I didn't want to go because I didn't think it was my place to be at his Interview or negotiations but Russ the new boss insisted that I come. Which makes me feel good because his current boss treats me like ****. Russ even wanted us to bring our kids, but if you know my kids, than you know that would be a huge undertaking. Saturday we meet with a Realtor who will take us around and show us some rentals that I picked out from Colorado Springs MLS. Most of them are within 30 miles or so from where Josh will be working. We are not sure that Raider will make the move with us. He is losing his mind., He has seizures, bites everyone but me, growls, snarls, pees on furniture and beds, and hes just senile. So I hate to say it, but he may be put down before we move. No one else would take a dog like for very long, so maybe its for the best, or maybe Grandma Julie could make a fancy diaper for him like what she has for Maggie. Lots of tough decisions right now. Lots going on.
For the first time in my life, I feel like an adult. Making some very grown up decisions, and weighing the risk and options. Sometimes you have to take the chance even it means giving up everything and everyone you know. Even if it means giving up the home you love, and leaving it all behind. I don't want to look back 10 years from now and wonder what if. We are just going to dive in head first and see what happens. It could be the best thing ever or the worst, but if we don't try then we will never know.

BIG NEWS

Josh has decided to take a job in Colorado Spring, well out side of there in a town called Yoder. However Im a city girl and I have insisted that we live in or around Colorado Springs. You know I can't live without my nail salons, tanning salons, and malls. I have researched it and C.S has about 400,000 people there. Big change. We put our house on the Market yesterday. There is a big for sale sign in the front yard. We are sort of under pricing it because we need it to move fast. The worst thing will be having to make two house payments until this baby goes. Ive already looked at rentals on line in Colorado Springs and the market is very comparable to Casper, if not a little cheaper. We are already working with an agent down there to help us find something. Im a little heart broken because you all know the hard work that I have put into this house. It will be hard to leave my yard. Im looking forward to making new friends,(better quality people), and a fresh new start. Not looking forward to the traffic, Im so afraid to drive in Denver, and I heard people in Colorado Springs drive just as bad, but Im sure I will get acclimated in no time. I think that kids are very resilient and will adjust just fine. Hopefully if everything goes well Josh will be able to make 6 figures in 5 years or less with this new job, and it is already a big pay increase. So we would be crazy not to go. Plus I looked on line at the job market down there and saw that they have over 1000 job openings, which is great because Casper only has about 12. Hopefully my new degree will pay off down there. Either way Im excited yet terrified. We will be going down there to meet with Josh's new boss over labor day weekend, and checking out rentals also. So wish us the best of luck in our new endeavors.

Back 2 School

First of all I want to say that Brenna's wedding was fabulous. She was so beautiful and her dress was to die for. Dusty seems great and I wish them all the luck in their new life together. It was great to see everyone and to meet everyone. I wish we had more gatherings like that, but Brookies wedding is just around the corner.

The kiddos started school today, what a busy morning we had. For the first time Mason has a male teacher. His name is Mr. Becker, he is such a nice guy and he is about seven feet tall. Peyton's teacher is a nice young lady, her name is eluding me at the moment, but she seems very sweet, and she has two young daughters who go to Paradise Valley elementary also. Im excited for Peyton, 4th grade was my favorite grade ever because we got to go to South Pass on a field trip and pan for gold. All of the class dressed up like cowboys and girls and we got our pictures in the paper. Plus I was the teachers pet, so that was a bonus. I am so going to volunteer to be a parent chaperon if she goes there for a field trip. Jayden was decked out in all his South Pole gear, skulls and all, along with his new piercing. What can I say, he's 14. God help us all.

Josh and I are both actively seeking jobs. He still has his job, but is miserable, and is ready for a change. So if you hear of anything good in your area let us know. We are so not above getting out of Casper, as a matter of fact we would love to get the hell out of here. So don't be shy, I don't care where you live, if you see anything substantial for work post it on the blog.

OMG!

OK so my diploma came in the mail today. It finally feels real to me that yes, I did this. I kept thinking I would get a letter from the registrar office saying our records indicate that you still need 25 credit hours to graduate. But its the real deal. Im so happy. OMG I went to a job interview today for the University of Wyoming Out Reach Center. It would be managing 25 people and an entire building. Needless to say I felt so under qualified that I wanted to sink into the the chair and turn into a puddle of mush and magically disappear. It was like no interview that I have ever gone to before. There were people on the TV, like a tele-conference with people from the UW in Laramie, and someone across town, plus 3 people in the interview room with me. I felt totally out of my element. But I handled it as professionally as possible. I think that the only way I would get that job is if everyone else some how came up with the swine flew and slipped into a coma. One can always hope, right. But on a the bright side, any interview I will have in the future will be a piece of cake after that monstrosity. It was very intimidating, but I did the best I could. Josh and I watched a meteor shower on Tuesday night. It was magnificent, and for ever star that fell I wished that I would get this job that I just interviewed for. Maybe the magic of the meteor shower will help me a little. I can't help but blog now that I have nothing else to do. Hope to see all of Josh's family at Brenna's big day. Peyton is excited to go the the wedding, but she refuses to dance with her dad unless she is compensated by cash. She has made this point abundantly clear. Were not saying that Josh is a bad dancer, but........we will see how much he has to drink at the reception and you all can judge for yourself. Drive safe everyone and we will see you soon.

Fun Summer Pictures.

Fun in the Yard.

I did it!

As of today I am now officially a college graduate. I earned my Associates of Applied Science in Management with a minor in Information Technology. I want to thank everyone who has helped me along the way, especially Josh. I could not of done this without his support. I am thankful that he allowed me to stay home with the kids while bettering myself by getting an education. It has been hard on us financially and at times it has taken its tole on our relationship, but now it has all been worth it. Now Im done, and it feels great. I have already sent out 4 resumes and am waiting for some call backs any time now.
I have been going threw some heavy things lately. My emotional state is not so good. I went to a doctor last week and he had diagnosed me with PTSD, or crummy child hood syndrome, as he likes to call it. Also PMDD which is 1000 times wore than PMS, and Anxiety disorder. He put me on some pills that I tried to take but they were not the right fit for me. He also gave me a light dose of Valium which I can take when I feel the anxiety coming on. The Valium is ok, and I can take that but the other stuff made me dizzy, sick and zombiefied. I go back in 6 weeks, hopefully he will find something that works. I just can't live with my emotions all over the place any more.
Josh is going threw something also, I don't know if it's mid-life crisis, or just being unhappy at work, or what. He hasn't been sleeping well, he's just not himself. His B-day is on Sunday, perhaps that's what is going on. I always get a little depressed around my B-Day, I hate getting old. I know that right now financially we are not doing so well. There is nothing worse than the stress from finances. How are we going to do this or pay this or... I have probably already said too much. The kids start school on Aug 17th, way too early if you ask me. I hate to beg in cyber space, but if anyone could help with some school clothes for these kids that would be awesome. Hopefully this will be the last year we will ever be so broke. So please readers of the Owens blog send us your good vibes and keep us in your prayers and best wishes. We so need to be lifted up right now. I know good things will come, we just have to be patient, and find the strength in each other to keep it all together.