Thank God for Xanex

Our house is looking so clean and uncluttered, it's like I don't live here anymore. This Sunday while we are in Colorado our house will be having an open house. Let's hope someone loves it as much as we have and decides to buy it. If not we are going to have to rent it out, which hurts me worse than a tooth ache or even having a baby. We all know how MOST people treat rentals. All these changes, you think I would be a mess, however I have discovered the magic of Xanex, it is the wonder drug for me. All the stress melts away and I can still function and think clearly, but all of the moodiness and anxiety are gone. Im on a very low dose along with some Valium, so life is good now that I am properly medicated. LOL. We will meet Josh's new boss on Sunday and they will work out all the details of his employment. I guess his Secretary will be there to entertain me while they haggle, and do what ever they are going to do. I didn't want to go because I didn't think it was my place to be at his Interview or negotiations but Russ the new boss insisted that I come. Which makes me feel good because his current boss treats me like ****. Russ even wanted us to bring our kids, but if you know my kids, than you know that would be a huge undertaking. Saturday we meet with a Realtor who will take us around and show us some rentals that I picked out from Colorado Springs MLS. Most of them are within 30 miles or so from where Josh will be working. We are not sure that Raider will make the move with us. He is losing his mind., He has seizures, bites everyone but me, growls, snarls, pees on furniture and beds, and hes just senile. So I hate to say it, but he may be put down before we move. No one else would take a dog like for very long, so maybe its for the best, or maybe Grandma Julie could make a fancy diaper for him like what she has for Maggie. Lots of tough decisions right now. Lots going on.
For the first time in my life, I feel like an adult. Making some very grown up decisions, and weighing the risk and options. Sometimes you have to take the chance even it means giving up everything and everyone you know. Even if it means giving up the home you love, and leaving it all behind. I don't want to look back 10 years from now and wonder what if. We are just going to dive in head first and see what happens. It could be the best thing ever or the worst, but if we don't try then we will never know.