I did it!

As of today I am now officially a college graduate. I earned my Associates of Applied Science in Management with a minor in Information Technology. I want to thank everyone who has helped me along the way, especially Josh. I could not of done this without his support. I am thankful that he allowed me to stay home with the kids while bettering myself by getting an education. It has been hard on us financially and at times it has taken its tole on our relationship, but now it has all been worth it. Now Im done, and it feels great. I have already sent out 4 resumes and am waiting for some call backs any time now.
I have been going threw some heavy things lately. My emotional state is not so good. I went to a doctor last week and he had diagnosed me with PTSD, or crummy child hood syndrome, as he likes to call it. Also PMDD which is 1000 times wore than PMS, and Anxiety disorder. He put me on some pills that I tried to take but they were not the right fit for me. He also gave me a light dose of Valium which I can take when I feel the anxiety coming on. The Valium is ok, and I can take that but the other stuff made me dizzy, sick and zombiefied. I go back in 6 weeks, hopefully he will find something that works. I just can't live with my emotions all over the place any more.
Josh is going threw something also, I don't know if it's mid-life crisis, or just being unhappy at work, or what. He hasn't been sleeping well, he's just not himself. His B-day is on Sunday, perhaps that's what is going on. I always get a little depressed around my B-Day, I hate getting old. I know that right now financially we are not doing so well. There is nothing worse than the stress from finances. How are we going to do this or pay this or... I have probably already said too much. The kids start school on Aug 17th, way too early if you ask me. I hate to beg in cyber space, but if anyone could help with some school clothes for these kids that would be awesome. Hopefully this will be the last year we will ever be so broke. So please readers of the Owens blog send us your good vibes and keep us in your prayers and best wishes. We so need to be lifted up right now. I know good things will come, we just have to be patient, and find the strength in each other to keep it all together.

silence

I am now officially another year older. Sad, Yes, but looking forward to being another year wiser. Congratulation's to Brook and her soon to be hubby. That girl doesn't waste any time does she. Who cares as long as they are happy. I have been all alone this week because Auntie Beki has the children, and Josh couldn't get any time off work. I have done about 20 hours worth of home work in 3 days and enjoyed the quiet. I have heard noises in my house that have never been heard before like the clock ticking and the hum of the refrigerator. Silence is so nice from time to time. I have forgotten the sound of silence as my life is filled with constant noise. I have loved the time alone.
Foxy is in full heat and driving all the neighbor hood dogs crazy, but she only has eyes for Boogie, her white pom boyfriend. She is driving him crazy also, she is such a tease, but I think they will make some super cute puppies if they ever get to that point, I went as far as to pronounce them husband and wife so they could get on with it already. I want puppies so bad. I think my biological clock is ticking loudly, because I've been having baby dreams, and wishing I could have another baby. But that is so not what I want, so I think having some puppies will calm the baby craving. Damn female instincts.

Rain Rain go away, come again some other day.

Did I miss something??? I thought there was something called global warming going on. Hello Mother Nature its me Nikki, could you please let the sun come out to play for a little while? Perhaps the request will get a quicker response through syber space. It is 34 degrees out side right now, maybe the pool could double as an ice skating rink. What happened to summer? Im sorry you guys, I jinxed us by dragging out the pool. I'm afraid Ive doomed us all to perpetual winter. All the rain has been awesome for the yard and Jayden's mowing business. He is highly motivated to mow strangers yards for money. It's nice to see him doing something besides playing games all day long. He is such a good kid (knock on wood). A bit hairy, but I know under all that hair there is a good kid lurking somewhere. His friends at school have started calling him Sasquatch because of his hairiness. I remember just a few short years ago he would come home from school all upset because the kids would call him shrimp or midget. I guess he showed them because now a days there is nothing shrimpy or small about him. Not even his voice, he has the deepest voice Ive ever heard on a 14 year old.
I found Foxy a boy friend, he is a white pom just like Foxy, I hear the sound of puppies in the near future. Little, cute, white fuzy, $350 per puppy with cute puppy breath. If she only knew my plans for her. I can't wait. I love puppies.

Summer is here

I awoke this morning dark and early to find Mason already awake, and he had to tell everyone sleeping or not that summer is here. Summer starts today mom he cutely explained, because we have no school for a long long time. I bet Mrs. Pollock is going to miss me he said in his sweet little voice. I don't think that he could get much cuter, he is such a sweetie. Last weekend we put up the pool and wouldn't you know the minute we got it out of the shed it started to rain and hasn't quit since. I need to come up with some fun summertime activities quick so I can occupy these children and hopefully save what sanity I have left. We don't have many plans for this summer but to go to Brenna's wedding. I'm hoping that Josh and I will be able to have a little getaway without the kids sometime this summer. We so need it. I start my last class on the 8th, and in the mean time I've been looking for a job. I had a interview with Broker One, but I don't think I'm going to take that job, it's from 11 am to 8 p.m. and every weekend. I wouldn't get a day off or be able to see my family very often. I think that job would be perfect for me, but perhaps when the kids are a bit older or when I'm a bit older it would be better. I just can't see me missing everything with my kids to do that job. Plus the hours are way to much for someone with a young family. So the search is on for a 9-5. Im still awaiting your reservations with the kids this summer FAMILY. Don't be shy they don't bite, well not hard anyway.

It is fixed

We no longer have a marshy grassland in our front yard. Josh along with his friends Travis and Gary fixed the broken water main. Thank You guys for all your hard work. You don't realize how much of a luxury running water is until you don't have it. Other than that things are back to normal. The kids only have 9 days of school left until summer break. Jayden is considering going to a ROTC camp this summer. He wants to do the ROTC thing next year because he wants to go into the army after he graduates. I would rather him go to college, but when he's 18 I no longer have the say on what he does with his life. Perhaps he will change his mind within the next 4 years. Peyton and Mason don't have any plans, but to socialize and have fun all summer. I just cant wait to put up the pool. It always takes forever to warm up, but this year should be much better than last year because we cut down all the trees that shaded the pool last summer. We have cut down at least 15 trees the past 2 months. There were 48 trees on our property when we moved in, but they are mostly elms that are diseased and infested with elm beetles. Who ever lived here before us went crazy on planting trees. I hope all of you have a great summer and please don't hesitate to book your reservations with the kids in advance.

The Gods are giving me the FINGER!

Do you ever feel like the gods are giving you the finger? Lets see the month before last my boiler needed serious repair. Last month my car broke down twice in one week, and I saved the best for last, this morning we woke up to a marshy grassland in our front yard. We have a busted water main in the front of our house. It is where the rose bushes are right outside our kitchen window. I must of thought out loud that perhaps this month we would actually be able to afford groceries at some point. I feel as if the gods are all up there on their clouds high five -ing each other and flipping us the bird. I thought I was all paid up with Karma, but I guess she has other plans in mind for me. I must of been bad in my other life. So I guess it is true, if its not one thing its another. I'm soo frustrated right now, if you can't tell. Josh seems to think that he can fix it all on his own,. I hope he's right. Stay tuned for further updates or chapter II of The Gods are Giving Me the Finger.

Much needed break

It is official, I finally passed Accounting 1. I am so happy that I will never have to look at that again, however I have to take Accounting II this summer and then I will graduate in August. It has been a long hard road, but I see the light at the end of the tunnel, and I am excited to start the new chapter in my life. I have been on my mini vacation for 3 days now and all I have done is spring clean the house. Ive been washing curtains, shampooing carpets, scrubbing down walls and dusting everything. We have been working hard on the yard and it looks so pretty. I got way too excited and have already put out the patio furniture. I know it will be a mad dash to put everything up when we get our late May blizzard, as we always do. It seems like as soon as the flowers are in full bloom and looking beautiful we always get that heavy snow that crushes everything and then we spend the rest of the summer trying to get everything back to the way it was before the horrid snow storm. I would like to have a family gathering here this summer, maybe in early July. We have talked about doing this for years, and perhaps this year will be the year that we all get together and have some fun in the pool.

Just to let you know if anyone wants some children this summer for any reason at all just let me know. I have 3 adorable, hard working, perfect, well behaved, angles that would love to come and work for you. They don't eat much and are programed to do as you ask. OK so I embellished a bit, but you get the point. Their calender is wide open and I will even deliver them to you free of charge. Now thats a deal...